Why does he feel so terrible He really isn't used to such an uncomfortable feeling. This... Distance between him and someone he actually trusts and cares about. Even before all this mess Ilsa had a place with the rest of the Society group, and she, whether he knew it or not, had been placed a little higher. It was only natural—they had trained together, been through a lot of the same things, and she had been one of the very few he could trust and rely on early on. They had their differences, but they had similar mindsets.
And because they were both high ranking, they would often work or confer with each other about things, the moon operation being the most recent, at least for him, but nothing really changed too much in the time gap between them.
...Maybe it's because things had been so natural he really never noticed anything until that status quo was so horribly disrupted. This sense of... Feeling that fracture in a bond and that fear of losing it. Is that what it is?
All he knows is he dislikes it and he hates being restless like this. Especially when a path is obvious in front of them. They're just both... Hesitant to take that first step.
So there's a few beats after his initial answer, and regardless if Ilsa was speaking or moving he suddenly raises his voice.]
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[And that's it, that's all he can say at first.
Why does he feel so terrible He really isn't used to such an uncomfortable feeling. This... Distance between him and someone he actually trusts and cares about. Even before all this mess Ilsa had a place with the rest of the Society group, and she, whether he knew it or not, had been placed a little higher. It was only natural—they had trained together, been through a lot of the same things, and she had been one of the very few he could trust and rely on early on. They had their differences, but they had similar mindsets.
And because they were both high ranking, they would often work or confer with each other about things, the moon operation being the most recent, at least for him, but nothing really changed too much in the time gap between them.
...Maybe it's because things had been so natural he really never noticed anything until that status quo was so horribly disrupted. This sense of... Feeling that fracture in a bond and that fear of losing it. Is that what it is?
All he knows is he dislikes it and he hates being restless like this. Especially when a path is obvious in front of them. They're just both... Hesitant to take that first step.
So there's a few beats after his initial answer, and regardless if Ilsa was speaking or moving he suddenly raises his voice.]
Ilsa.